Facing a New Diagnosis

Nine years ago I gave birth to an amazing little boy, his name is Wolverine. Over the last nine years there have been lots of ups and downs, lots of questions and concerns. More recently in his school years because of behaviors that he has now had at school and not just at home. Finally we have someone willing to listen. We have current tests running at school for ADHD, emotional disability, and possible Autism. He's in weekly therapy sessions at the local mental health clinic. Its a new journey for our family. One that so far has been on a very dark path. I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel but its still far off.

I as always will share this journey with you...with all of you. The road we've been traveling so far hasn't been one I've been willing to share. Not because I'm embarrassed but mostly because I just didn't know how to talk about it.

But I have the words now and I hope I have the strength to be honest with all of you.

Damn the Points

I remember it like it was yesterday. Standing in front of class in the 4th grade, being made to walk back and forth to my desk because my teacher asked me if I would always be this slow. Being taunted and I remember crying. I can recall that moment even now at the age of 34. I remember my mom asking me what had happened and some of my friends telling her what had happened. I think back then kids were a lot nicer, yes their were bullies but nothing like today's kids.

Yesterday Racer sat in class and peed in his chair. Not because the teacher wouldn't let him use the bathroom, but because she has a points system. The kids earn and lose points for certain things, losing points for say "using the restroom" is one of them and the reason why Racer sat there and willingly peed his pants. You see, regardless of Autism he's a super competitive child so it seemed totally worth it to him to just sit there and pee. But because of Autism he thinks its ok, to him a rule is a rule and he wants those points, willing to do whatever it takes to get them or not lose them.

This is not a world I want to raise him or any of my other kids in. To harm at any cost to get what they need. Its hard enough for him to make and keep friends, now he is the pee kid *lets hope not*.

So we're headed off to ANOTHER meeting with the principle and his teacher. It hasn't been a good year so far for us...but that's like three other blogs to write lol.