April 2nd...World Autism Awareness Day
So far all I've seen is fighting, so today we are showing the world that while we want society to accept our children, we turn around and bash each other and there is NO acceptance for each other.
I'm pissed, I think I'm beyond pissed.....so I warn you, this post might be curse laden and it might not be. But I promise you its important that I say what I feel.
As a usually home bound momma *for many reasons* I turn to the internet for friendships, advice and compassion. I have found greats friends, men and women alike who without judgement have found friendship with me as well. Each and everyone of us different and with those differences we have found that we don't need to judge each other.
*When you've met one child with Autism, you've only met one child with Autism*
The same goes for Special Needs parents, there are no two alike, and for that reason it makes us wonderful. It means we can share, we can support and we can love each other. But there will always be that one person, or even few people who think that their opinion is right, while it is....its just right for them.
As adult we should be grown enough to put aside the differences and support the parent who needs it more. Because while my version of Autism with my son might seem easy to some and maybe it is, I can never judge a parent who's Autism is maybe horribly tragic. I read some blogs and I feel the struggle, I feel the pain, what I want to do is wrap my arms around that parent and just hug them, because that is what they need. They don't need someone slapping them in the face of their own pain.
*here comes the cussing*
It makes me fucking sick to my stomach the fighting I have seen. You know what...your version of Autism, well its so fucking different then everyone else's and that's just end of the conversation. In that version there is NO room for judgement, because until you walk in my shoes you don't fucking know shit about it. Just can't justify hating something you know nothing about.
Until your child with Autism literally beats you senseless you have no room to judge that parent, you can't even judge them if they say they hate Autism. Its ok to hate Autism and its ok to love Autism, my child is not going to suffer if I sit here and bitch about hating Autism because I LOVE MY SON. I love all my children! Hell my fucking teenagers, they suck....I HATE TEENAGERS. They are crazed and stupid and well I love my kids but seriously teenagers need to get a fucking grip.
Its like my mom always used to tell me "I will always love you, I may hate something you did...but I will always love you" *simply put*
To those with Autism, I have the up most respect for you, but to those that blog, to those that hold jobs and have children and get married and live meaningful lives....you are the perfect example of what EVERY parent with a child who has Autism wants for their own children. BUT in that same regard, you have no idea what those violently SIB Autistic children deal with. The ones who are non-verbal and violent because of it. You don't know and you can't judge.
The outside world has enough hate for us and our children.....save the drama for them, save the hate for them. We need to come together and accept each other no matter the differences....we can't expect the outside world to accept us if we can't accept each other.
*To the judgmental pricks....FUCK YOU*